Monday, October 15, 2007

Basically The Worst Day Ever

My BRAND NEW CAR was shaking/vibrating this morning. Freaked out. Had it taken to the dealership to be looked at. Am now four hours late to work after all is said and done.

My boyfriend decides that we're not working. Tells me this over the phone. Won't give me a straight answer as to the "status" of our relationship. "We'll talk later." According to him I've just been fooling myself all this time. He's unhappy. I break down, sob, cry the whole deal.

Oh, so I must have been imagining that day when you asked me to move in.
And I must have been imagining that day you told me you wanted to spend the rest of your life with me.
And all those talks about our future together, I must have been having those with myself.

I have never hurt so bad in all my life.

47 comments:

Stephanie said...

Oh my god Michelle...

I just went through something similar with Mark and I can tell you that everything will work out. Give him his time to realize that you're the best thing that's ever happened to him. He'll come around.

HUGS!

Jess said...

Oh man, that's so upsetting. I'm really sorry. I hope things work out with your boyfriend. And your car.

Clink said...

Oh my god. I'm sitting here totally shocked and I just want to hug you.

Nothing more to say other than the fact that we're all here for you, this little supportive blog community. Promise.

Mim said...

Oh my God. No, what's going on? I feel so bad for you. I'm internet hugging you right now. Let me know if you just want to vent to someone. I'm free :)

molly said...

Oh my god. What? I jsut saw your gmail status and ran over here to send love. Big hugs. I'm here to talk if you need it.

xoxo

Kristen said...

oh no. i hope your "talk" turns out to be just him being dumb. i'm here if you want to chat.

onebigholiday said...

I'm with clink. I am so shocked right now. I am so sorry babe.

Ashlie "flight attendants have more fun".... said...

Holy bahgebees. I know some *people* that I can send over to "talk" to him if you'd like. JK. Kinda.

Ben and Jerry are the only men you can rely on sometimes....

Hope said...

Michelle, I am so sorry. I hope that everything will be OK in the end. We are all here for you in the meantime.

The Lisa Show said...

Crap. Reading that was a surreal experience. I was honestly waiting for you to say you were kidding at the end of the post. I'm so sorry. I wish there was something I could do to make it all better.

Libby said...

ahhh my heart is breaking :'(
i just saw your gmail stat and emailed you. oh gosh mich. I wish I could reach out and hug you SO HARD!

brandy said...

Ugh!I'm sorry to read that you are going through such a difficult time. Fingers crossed that everything works out for you, and in the meantime that you take care of yourself.

mcgee said...

awww sweetie i am so sorry. i wish we could all come over and give you a giant hug...i don't know what else to say except that i hope everything works out for the best...i'm here if you ever need to talk.

nancypearlwannabe said...

Oh no! I'm so sorry, Michelle. I hope things work out in the end. I'm sending good thoughts your way!

Lacey Bean said...

OMG what a sucky day! I'm sorry to hear about your boyfriend... but if this happened, then he probably wasnt meant to be.

Hope you feel better!

Lisa said...

Oh Michelle... I don't even know what to say. I'm so sorry. I don't know how to make you feel better. I sincerely hurt for you. I'm sending SOOOOOOOOO MANY EXTREMEEEE positive vibes your way. This is incredibly shitty and I'm sorry it happened to you.

Lisa said...

It's true though, what clink says. I mean, I have people who support me when my blog domain is giving me trouble. We have such great great great supportive friends in this blogging community we somehow have constructed. I just realized how incredibly lucky we all are, actually, that we're all backed by so many terrific people.

Ripe for Reading said...

I hope everything works out. Hang in there.

...BeccaLynn said...

Oh my gosh, girl. I am so sorry. So so sorry. If you need ANYTHING, email me. I'm here if you do.

tiff said...

awww...heres a hug from my corner of the world. So sorry so many bad things happened to you in one day!

Hang in there sweety.

distracted spunk said...

*hugs* I'm sorry. We'll be here for you though. Though, the car shaking/vibrating thing happened to me, and then I found it it was stolen, by means of a switched registration ticket and lots more craziness. If you want the full story, tell me. I promise, it's always a good laugh.

elysa said...

I have been wondering why I haven't seen any posts from you all day and I just discovered that my feedreader is waiting to post in the correct time. Meaning I guess you are two hours ahead of me timezone wise so I don't see your posts for 2 hours.

I am so sorry you are going through this - about two weeks ago J (the fiance I wrote) and I broke up and I haven't written about it because I didn't know what to say. There really are no words.

I can't believe he told you this over the phone. If there is anything that you need I am available. I know we don't know each other in real life but I feel like we do and really if there is something I can do - I know what you are going through.

Tina Vaziri said...

Oh Michelle, I am so sorry. I can't believe he would tell you that over the phone. I know it's hard because we are all not there with you, but I wish we were so that we could give you real hugs and let you know that we're here for you.

I'm so sorry this happened! :(

DG said...

Oh my god Michelle, I am literally shocked that that happened with him. I have no idea what the hell he's thinking. All I need you to know is that you're amazing and beautiful and wonderful and deserve SO MUCH BETTER.

xoxo

Epic said...

Michelle, that is so terrible, I am so sorry. Maybe you guys will work it out, and I'm sure he'll talk to you eventually about what he's feeling. I know you read about what happened to me... at least you'll get some answers. Maybe he's just being lame for a minute and he's scared. Boys are dumb <--- the one universal truth.

I'll be sending good thoughts your way today.

thecasualperfectionist said...

Oh, Michelle! I just now saw your post, and as I was reading, I said, (out loud), "Oh nooooo!" Claire (my 22-month old) touched my arm and with a very concerned look said, "Oh Momma. It'll be OK." (Apparently that's something I say a lot and she's picked up on it.) But, you know what? She's right. It will be OK...maybe not today. Maybe not tomorrow. But it will be OK. I'm sending a cyber-hug your way... *HUG*

Heidi said...

*many many many hugs* I'm so sorry :( about the boy and zee car. I hope things work out for you <3

alyndabear said...

Oh honey, I can't say anything that will make it all better, but just know if you need to vent, I'm just an email away. *big hugs*

Marriage-101 said...

Oh Michelle! And after that beautiful one year post I just read last week. I'm so very sorry sweetie. I'm completely in shock. Hang in there girl.

Jenni said...

I'm so sorry this is happening to you. You know that I know how you feel...

I can tell you that everything will be fine and it'll all get better...but seeing as I am currently in almost the EXACT same position that you're in, I'm going to tell you that IT SUCKS! MAJORLY! BOYS ARE STUPID!

Know that we are all here for you...if you ever need to talk.

Misery loves company...

...BeccaLynn said...

I just wanted to let you know that you're in my thoughts. Ever since I read your post and left that comment, I keep thinking about you and hoping you're okay. I know you're probably not, but I just wanted you to know that I'm here at least hoping that you're okay.

Can I give you a hug? K?
Hugs?

...beccalynn

sweetanemone said...

awww michelle i am totally thinking of you right now. you are one of the most inspiring, beautiful people i have had the pleasure of being friends with and if this man can't see that, he must have lost his mind. best of luck and i am always here (via here, myspace, facebook, whatever) if you need someone to (insert any useful word here) to! sending some good vibes your way cause you certainly deserve them xxxxxxx

courtney said...

awwwh... michelle. *hugs!*

La said...

***hugs***

We're here if you need us! Hang in there!

rachel said...

i love you. i'm here for you.

AJ said...

Feel the hurt. It sucks, I know, but feel it. And i hope you're smiling soon

PL said...

:( Along with everyone, I'm shocked! I hope you're doing okay. Hugs.

Miss M. said...

sorry to hear the bad news. just remember that everything works itself out in the end and that everything happens for a reason.

i'll be thinking about you!

Ashley said...

Ohhh Michelle I am so sorry to hear that. I'm seriously in shock after reading that. Everything does happen for a reason and things'll work themselves out in the end. Just know that we're all here for you no matter what. Big, huge, massive hugs from me...xoxoxoxoxoxo

ana said...

aww I wanna say so many things, but I know nothin can make it any better...you must be hurting, but life's like that...you need to be strong...and remember this too will pass....in the meanwhile, we are all there for you, Hugs!

Princess Pointful said...

Oh no.
I just got a sick to my stomach when I read this post.
I am so, so sorry sweetie. I hope you are able to get the answers you need.
Know that all of us are here in any way we can be. Also know that you deserve only someone who knows how incredible you are... it shines through from your writing.

The Lisa Show said...

So I've been checking back on your blog every couple of hours. You must think I'm crazy. Haha. Hi. If you need comic relief or anything at all I'm capable of, all you have to do is email me, ok? You're one of the best people I've ever met online, Michelle. 41 comments. All these people love you. We're all here for you. You're THAT amazing.

Randi said...

(((HUGS))) to you!! I'm so sorry you are going through this:(

stilettoheights said...

OMG I am so sorry.....there are no words I can tell you, it's just so awful.

I can't believe he did it over the phone, how cowardly.

Slightly Disorganized said...

I emailed you, but I comment love you too. :)

Anna said...

Oh Michelle, so sorry! I'm just catching up from being away, and I am so sad to hear your news!
We're with you!

karen said...

OMG!!!!!!! i haven't been online in awhile- i've missed a lot! i hope you're doing ok!!!!!!