I come back to blogging after over a month of quiet. Ready to write my heart out. And then? We are hit with the remnants of Hurricane Ike and I have been without power at home since 4 p.m. on Sunday. Are the powers that be trying to tell me something?
I am beginning to wonder.
Well, screw them. No power, air-dried hair, and stubbed toes from running into walls in the dark will not keep me from blogging.
Other signs lately? A proposition from a married man in need of a mistress.
I wish I was kidding.
I thought I was ready for a committed relationship. You know, exclusive. Using the term boyfriend and girlfriend. Giggling, cuddling, and obnoxious PDA galore. I finally snagged someone who wanted that too. And all of a sudden I changed my mind. Committed? Who, me? Ready to stop dating anyone else? Wait, does that mean the volleyball hotties are off limits? Ready to trust a guy and know that I won't get hurt again (restating sign from earlier: a married man hitting on me WHILE WEARING HIS WEDDING RING)?
That last one? You got me. I'm not ready in the slightest.
Maybe I'm having too much fun?
Quite possibly.
Maybe I like having options?
Hell, yes. There are a few things I'm not willing to give up just yet.
But more importantly, I don't trust anyone. Yeah, thanks for screwing that one up. This may take awhile.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
A Sign?
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We had horrendous high winds too here a few hours south from you. We didnt lose power but several around us did.
Commitment scares the hell out of me.
I'm feeling you about the trust thing, but my biggest problem with dating so far? Not feeling attracted enough to someone to NOT want to find someone else.
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I'm sorry you had to deal with a power outage--Ike was one heck of a storm!
As for the trust thing, it will come eventually when you meet someone worth trusting. Clearly Married Guy was not the one ;)
No, it's not a sign at all. Now back to your regularly scheduled blogging, please! =)
My parents are still in Cbus. They said it was awful there. I'm so glad to hear that you are ok.
As for the man situation...there will always be gross men who will always be looking for a sideline fling. It makes me want to vomit too, but they're out there. However, I like to believe that there are still a few good ones.
PS- You can never have too much fun or look the other way when hot volleyball players come around!
You know the world has gone crazy when there are hurricanes in Ohio.
There's nothing wrong with taking your time and being wary about the next person you commit to. But eventually you will find a trustworthy guy. They really do exist.
Yeah I would say take your time. Sounds like there are a couple things you still need to work through.
there's nothing wrong with wanting to keep your options open! enjoy yourself :-)
our power was out until yesterday morning!! since sunday - i can totally relate. life was a littel dark.
a married man? seriously?? ugh.
I'm glad your taking your time the way that you want. That trust thing? That was shot to shit after that bullshit with Cris & Nicole.
It took 5 years of being single and 1.5 years of no Cris OR Nicole in my life to finally get a grasp on things again.
Your timeline will probably be different from mine, I'm kind of an oddball in that sense. The point is that we all gotta do what we gotta do.
trust is the hardest thing to get back.
Don't worry, you'll be better in time (yes I'm quoting leona lewis)
I say have a little fun! Your young and only live once. There will be time for you to trust and love again soon enough.
There will be that one person who will do all he can to earn that trust from you. Until then, enjoy the fun!
Oh how I love it when you read my mind. :-) I was just thinking most of that stuff earlier today.
A friend of mine described Columbus as a war zone!
And mistresses? Always in high demand!!
Isn't it funny how some men really don't see the issue with hitting on you and being obviously married. It's like a non-issue.
I once wrote about a guy who was telling me about his wife and kid one minute and then suggesting we sleep together the next. Huh?!?
the guy was wearing his ring? seriously guys, what the hell? haha.
There's nothing wrong with wanting to wait before committing. Go have fun!
Well, while building that trust back up, there's nothing wrong with having a little fun. And, as my grandmother once told me (through a birthday card):
Q: How many hot men does it take to change a light bulb?
A: If you're in the dark with a hot guy, why turn on the lights?
That's in celebration of your little power outage. :-)
Nice blog. :) I just read thru your last few entries and really enjoyed them.
I say go slow, take your time and just enjoy the ride. No need to rush into any sort of commitment.
I think some free bird status can do a girl good, especially when it is self-imposed.
Besides, I'm sure you have a great back-log of stories for us freaders, yes?? ;)
You give us all these little tidbits, but no full stories?! You're killing us, Michelle!
Yay for having fun! Boo for hurricanes, though. And, really - hurricanes? In *Ohio*? What's up with that? As for not trusting yet - give yourself time. Honesty should be given freely; trust needs to be earned. And the right guy will earn your trust, I am sure!
But who says you have to be ready? I mean, look, you were burned badly in the past and that will affect trust issues. And if you want to have fun now, have fun! Just stay away from those creepy old married dudes :)
Don't worry. Things tend to work out. The married guy hitting on you is beyond gross, but he doesn't represent all men (as hard as that can be to believe sometimes).
We shouldn't trust everybody. But someone comes along who is worth it, and then you're okay.
Glad to see you're back!
I'm only 22. I've had 2 really awful relationships. Back to back. One was an almost married relationship. One month he was engaged to another woman. One month after dumping for what...honestly nothing. I go to New York to meet the rest of his family. Two weeks after we get home; relationship ended. Nice huh? I don't know everything there is to know about love... not even close. I'm now living with my boyfriend. I had hung up my hat, given up but I literally ran into someone that made me smile again. That's all it took. I guess I'm a sucker for love. Do what you are ready for. You know yourself better than anyone else can. : )
There are millions of disgusting men out there...the good ones aren't as obvious! That's the problem!!
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